heeheehee

i've started getting jealous when i hear that people i know are engaged. i'm hoping this will wear off.

while on the topic...

first kiss...

7th grade, at a barmitzvah, my bf at the time came up to me and said, "can i french kiss you now?" i said uhh ok. i was a really nervous pre-teen, super awkward around boys. he led me down the stairs of this nice country club and after a few minutes of not being able to find a couch to 'make out on' he said, ah screw it and kissed me.

this was the weirdest kiss ever! both of our mouths were wide open and we just touched tongues for a bit, i was totally freaked out so my eyes were wide open. afterward he said, "first time?" we didn't talk the rest of the night and i think we broke up after that. my next kiss wasn't until three years later.

first kiss... 15, beijing china at "pure girl" a tiny hole in the wall bar on sun li tun's bar street. mike lyons was his name. he kissed another girl right after i left. i was late coming home and was grounded for two weekends. at the time....WORTH IT! mike was definitely and with out a doubt inebraited. could i tell? of course not...i was 15.

i am ashamed my first kiss was in a bar. why was i in a bar at age 15? because i thought i was an adult. this is so embarassing to confess.

i had my first kiss at 19.  it was someone you know.  it was weird.  i've always been embarrassed that i was that old.  for years i wouldnt talk about it.  i started lying about it in high school and i've lied so much that my first-kiss lie is the almost-truth.  parts of me have to really think back to remember how my life actually went.    

I've been spending an irresponsible amount of time in the bath lately.  It gives me solace .

whenever people call me sammy i am certain that they love me. and i love them for calling me sammy.

how can i say this without giving tmi?

soooo, yesterday dan and i googled an intimate, married, sexy topic.

today i was working on a group project and everyone was staring at my computer, when i came home i realized that the phrase we searched was still in the google search bar. they definitely saw! hahahaha

missed connections

I check it from time to time. I confess that I'm a little miffed that after 4 months of living in Ann Arbor, nobody's posted a missed connection about me. But I never regret looking at Missed Connections.

I feel like SH*T

T* an* * **e on * b*e**.

the hardest part about writing to me is that you can just make anything up. how do you keep it all grounded?

facebook roulette

Everytime i sign into facebook chat, I have to scan down the list to make sure there aren't certain people signed in who i really don't want to chat with. (aka. strange boys from my past or that kid from the church activity who I couldn't deny as a facebook friend). Inevitably, I forget to check or am not fast enough at signing out and one of these people with try to chat me up and so I ignore them. and then I feel guilty. and yet, i still sign in. its a sickness!

one of the best blogs i have seen lately

man oh man...

i watched the season finale of THE BACHELOR! and worse than that is....it had me HOOKED!